Oh the joy of 8th grade (:

i wonder to myself if i am in deep like....or just a stage that will pass....it depends i guess on who it might be...someone i don't know at all? no i know this person quite well...even though we have only really known each other for about a year and a half now? even though he invited me to a movie for his 13th birthday in the middle of summer, and we have nick names for each other? does that mean a stage or a liking? i wont say love because i am in 8th grade...no clue what love is yet. even though i may think i do...i don't. His sandy blonde hair and crystal grayish blue eyes. how his hair waves at the end and by his ears are little curls. haha. i know that i can make him smile even when his girl friend can't...i know, sad right? like today as they both sat behind me in math...they are going through a rough patch so it was silent. i turn to him and say smile for me? please? its killing me! then he said no its not...i said yes it is then dramatically pretended to pass out. you have no idea how much joy it brought me to see his perfect lips curl up into a small smile and the melody of his laugh, tenderly escape from his lips. goodness i need to stop and get a grip...but i can't as i write him an email telling him that i miss the real him...not the needy one trying to please his whiny girl friend. (i didnt actually say that, it was similar, but in a nicer way) then i wait and wait this whole day checking my email constantly...dang..i think, maybe tomorrow...so tomorrow i will update this awkward stage...or liking? good night (: