Hello (;

alrighty, so i was supposed to update like 3 weeks ago...but that never happened did it? anyway...in the past 4 weeks he has broken up with her and then gone back out with her...then broke up again...no he is single...a free bird..flying in the wind. i try to flap my wings to reach him and catch up on everything i have missed. i am almost there. i asked him if he has ever liked me. he said he has. it makes my heart flutter. i get the jolt feeling in the pit of my stomach when he lays his head back on my desk and laughs. his sweet small laugh. how much joy it brings me. wow am i love struck. well like struck. i am now thinking that i am a creeper. today i needed a hug. he was the hug i wanted. so badly i wanted to feel his arms wrap around me. and hold me close. but that was one dream that didn't happen. sadly. i sat behind him. wanting to run my fingers through his perfect sandy blonde hair. he jokes about when he cried one time in class. and i tell him a sad story of why i cried. he sympathized. man i got to get a life. and i got to get my homework done. need to stop procrastinating. well....gotta go do math. in 26 minutes max. so i have time to dream about him...wow..i believe i am a creeper. stalker. weirdo. well if it means getting to love his every move. i am all for it (: good night!

Oh the joy of 8th grade (:

i wonder to myself if i am in deep like....or just a stage that will pass....it depends i guess on who it might be...someone i don't know at all? no i know this person quite well...even though we have only really known each other for about a year and a half now? even though he invited me to a movie for his 13th birthday in the middle of summer, and we have nick names for each other? does that mean a stage or a liking? i wont say love because i am in 8th grade...no clue what love is yet. even though i may think i do...i don't. His sandy blonde hair and crystal grayish blue eyes. how his hair waves at the end and by his ears are little curls. haha. i know that i can make him smile even when his girl friend can't...i know, sad right? like today as they both sat behind me in math...they are going through a rough patch so it was silent. i turn to him and say smile for me? please? its killing me! then he said no its not...i said yes it is then dramatically pretended to pass out. you have no idea how much joy it brought me to see his perfect lips curl up into a small smile and the melody of his laugh, tenderly escape from his lips. goodness i need to stop and get a grip...but i can't as i write him an email telling him that i miss the real him...not the needy one trying to please his whiny girl friend. (i didnt actually say that, it was similar, but in a nicer way) then i wait and wait this whole day checking my email constantly...dang..i think, maybe tomorrow...so tomorrow i will update this awkward stage...or liking? good night (:

Ugh Parents...

okay so it just sucks. my parents have no idea what kind of terrible kid i could be. so i watched All about Steve the movie on saturday and they wanted to see it to so they watched it last night. i told them it was a pretty good movie and all. then today i get home from school and my mom says: "i can't believe you thought that was a good movie. that was a terrible movie." and she says that just because they almost "do it" yah sure they were getting pretty crazy but they didn't! ugh its just like mom get over it. i didnt think it was that bad. i could be a part of half of the kids in my grade and get drunk every weekend, do drugs, lose my virginity. but no i am never gonna do that. ever. well i will be a virgin till i get married, so to speak. ahha sorry that that TMI. but it just like they don't understand anything. IT DRIVES ME INSANE!!!

Hello again :)
soo today was Tuesday the 19th. I thought that it was a pretty good day overall. haha especially after school and lunch recess ahaha! but they were the most fun because my friend roxy is going out with chase my other friend and they have been going out for about a week? idk but they are best friend so its kinda awkward lol. they held hands today and hugged it was adorable (: man i wish i had some one to hug and hold hand with but i shall wait until i am 16 WHOOO! haha and 6 i have to go to my Orchestra concert. i play the Cello. i am not very good though. so i think i might drop out next year. idk. well i am gonna go! keep living you lives and smiling. peace out.

the thirteen year old.

Hey Everyone (:

so i guess i havent blogged in a LONG TIME. haha well not much going on with me. my chistmas was good. i got a cell phone. FINALLY! WHOO! my new year was pretty good also i didnt really do anything fun on new years eve just stayed home. didnt even stay up to watch the ball drop. too tired. i guess it is now janruary 18 and it is 8:39 here. School has been going good, not anything really to rant or get all excited over. oh my previous blog about "freckles" yeah i dont really like him anymore but my friend Kaycie does and guess what?!?! they are going out now. how cute!! yeah that the last dance they danced together ALOT then the last dance he asked her out so whooop dee dooo daaa! gotta love 8th grade(: well i just keep going on and on so peace out. dont forget to always smile! you never know who is watching (:

the thirteen year old.

(P.S. i might upload some of my photography pictures i took last summer)

freckles(:

Hey who ever is following me!
So yesterday was friday and it was a good day. school was fun. we have a new kid. his name is either brady or braiden but he is tall, has brown hair, blue eyes, freckles, cute jaw, amazing. i cant wait to talk to him monday. yesterday he was taking tests and stuff so we didnt go to classes. i know the couselor that takes care of new kids really well and she told me he is really nice, not cocky, really smart too(: oh joy! then my and my friend haley stayed after school and walked to subway got a snapple and watched the 8th grade boys b-ball game. they lost big time but we had a blast! ahh! i just cant wait for monday. just chillin this weekend, doing laundry, cleaning my room and stuff. so yah peace out(:

today+tomorrow

today was okay(: school was boring as usual. had youth group at church. we hung out at dairy queen lol it was fun though. going to bed soon. tomorrow i have school again. ugh. i have a test in language arts and science. i also have gym which i am terrible at. i really need to get in shape. i am horrible! i am so excited for new moon to come out the 20th! i hope i get to see the midnight showing! anyway i will update later! really tired.
with loves!(:
kendra